Brink of insanity

I haven't updated in a while. I think that may be in part because my blogspot feels so much more... official? to me than my livejournal. With my livejournal I felt like I could just write one sentence and it was a legit entry. Now I need substance and thought for my entries. hmm. I suppose nothing toooo exciting has been going on. Still just struggling to keep going. Trying to keep track of my life and not let it completely slip me by. I literally feel like I keep losing touch with reality. Like I keep forgetting what I'm doing with my life. What I'm supposed to be doing. What the point of everything is. I have concluded that I am a very very emotional person. I do extremes. I can be very depressed or very happy. I thrive on the emotional rollercoaster. I love emotions just as much as I hate them. Its not worth it to me if I don't give things my all. I like to take the risks. I like to feel both the pain and the glory.